Daddy Guest Blogger: My Father’s Son

Woohoo, Billy is back : ) I asked Billy to write a blog post and expected something hilarious as usual, but instead he wrote something that touched my heart and made me cry. It’s as brutally honest as his other posts, but more emotional and from the heart.

My Father’s Son

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Something special, a father and son are bonded by more than gender and genes. It consumes me. I love all four of my children equally, but Tyson and I have a different connection. Its not love or favoritism, its a bond. It cannot be compared to anything as it would lessen the significance of our link to one another. I believe it grew stronger the day we found out that he was not “normal”. Normal… $#@* you. God delivered our children exactly as he planned and Tyson has made our family better and stronger.

We used to cater to Tyson because of his CAS (Childhood Apraxia of Speech) Disorder. I felt like, as a father I had somehow let him down. I didn’t speak to him enough or engage with him enough to stimulate an important learning period in his life. From what I’ve read and learned, every parent feels this guilt… This overwhelming guilt of “I should have done more.” I prayed and prayed for God to give me the answers, tell me what to do and I’ll do it, tell me something, anything. Tell me why this has happened to me, and in that moment I had found the answer. This didn’t happen to me. This had happened to Tyson. This was his fight.

My father, Billy Joe Pierce Sr. passed away Labor Day of 2014 and left me a wreck. Lost. Abandoned. I had looked to him for advice at every stage in my life. I think about how much I love my son and how much he must have loved me. I reflect on the times I hurt, struggled, felt like life was not being fair and how he let me …Wow, the strength it took to want to fight every battle for me, but instead stand aside. He loved me unconditionally, gave me the encouragement to overcome and taught me what perseverance meant. He knew me. He knew my heart. As late as my father was to every event in my life, he was always on time. In his passing, the roots of our bond continue to grow. I’ve planted these roots into my son now. Tyson will hurt and I will love him, he will struggle and I will encourage him, he will feel like life isn’t fair and I will teach him to persevere.

This is a fight, this is YOUR fight Tyson. I cannot intervene, I can’t tell Apraxia that you have had enough. There are no magic buttons or letters to be written that will make this go away, but I can support you. I can give you the tools to succeed. I can show you that our bond cannot be broken by any words or lack of. Daddy’s right here. I will always be right here.

-Billy

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6 Comments

  1. Alicia wrote:

    I love this Billy!!! This is what a father should be!!! I understand where you come from. It’s their fight!! Just like it’s Andrea’s and Luis’ fight with autism we can only be here to help them and support them!!! You are an amazing dad Billy!!!

    Posted 1.13.15 Reply
    • jaymepierce wrote:

      Thank Alicia! I’ll tell Billy your sweet words : ) Andrea and Luis are AMAZING rockstars! And getting so big ahhhh!

      Posted 1.14.15 Reply
  2. I love this … so sweet. It made me teary. And the photo – wow! Gorgeous, friend. I’ve got to share some of your posts on my blog. We’ll talk! It’s so refreshing to hear from the daddy! We never get this perspective. I shared this on my apraxia Pinterest board. 🙂

    Posted 1.14.15 Reply
    • jaymepierce wrote:

      Thank you! That’s so true, we usually hear everything from the mamas : ) I love the photo too, it’s just a random one I took at the park one day, but so sweet! I am going to go find your apraxia board now!

      Posted 1.18.15 Reply
  3. Samantha wrote:

    I love this!! It’s so sweet and real. Great words, Billy! Also, Jayme I love your blog. I’m a big fan! Keep it up!! xo Sam

    Posted 3.15.16 Reply
  4. Diana wrote:

    This is so so sweet, what a beautiful example of fatherhood and unconditional love! I sure hope you were able to share this letter with CAS (Childhood Apraxia of Speech) Disorder foundation/website or someplace where other families that may be experiencing the same, could read. Regardless of CAS this demonstrates their father /son bond, and how that can be passed on through the generations, warmed my heart!

    Posted 7.25.16 Reply

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