Last pregnancy sadness…

I love being pregnant. LOVE it.

Do I get horrible back/pelvic/hip pain? Do I get intense headaches? Am I exhausted? Nauseous all day? Yes, yes, yes and yes!

I will have had 4 children in about 5 years. My body feels it. Trust me.

But, I’m growing a human. Our little human : )

Pregnancy makes me feel whole. Needed. Irreplaceable. Beautiful.

There is no one else that can carry OUR child.

I have started to get nervous that I will feel a deep sadness when I’m done. For so long, I have been pregnant Jayme. It’s a responsibility I don’t take lightly or ungratefully. I know I am blessed to be pregnant and to have the ability to carry a child. I am proud of my big tummy. I am proud to show the world my baby from the start.

As my due date grows closer, I’ve realized this is the last first time for so many things…

This was the last time I saw our baby for the VERY first time.

This was the last time I got to see that little heartbeat bump bump bump.

This was the last time we anxiously awaited the gender ultrasound.

This is the last time I will feel little baby kicks throughout the day.

This is the last time my husband will feel a kick from the outside.

This is the last time we will sing to my tummy.

This is the last time I can blame my absentmindedness on “pregnancy brain”.

This is the last time we will choose a name that lasts a lifetime.

This is the last time we will head to the hospital to have a baby.

This is the last time we will MEET our child.

A part of me will always miss these moments, but I’m even more excited to complete our little (big) family.

We have so many first ahead of us.

I can’t wait : )

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  1. Alison wrote:

    Ahhhhhh I loved this! It is sad though!!

    Posted 8.6.14 Reply
  2. Amanda wrote:

    Awww!! When I was pregnant with Teeny (my last baby) I felt all of these things. I was so sad to think that I wouldn’t experience pregnancy again. I also was one who absolutely loved being pregnant. I am so happy that my little family is complete, but I definitely feel a tinge of sadness at times. It’s sometimes hard to see all your friends having babies and knowing that won’t be you again. What helped me was to not think of the baby experiences I’m missing out on now that Teeny is 3 and heading off to preschool, but to look forward to all the growing we as a family get to do in each stage of life. I’m eager to watch my kiddos grow, watch them become parents, and catch up on much needed alone time with their dad lol. Thanks for sharing your feelings!! You have such a beautiful family!

    Posted 8.6.14 Reply
  3. Charissa wrote:

    I absolutely loved this! You’re a great writer, and you’re so easy to connect to. I can see how painful & sad this would be for you. For some reason this post made me cry. Thank you for sharing 😀 btw I wouldn’t be opposed to a #5 gorgeous Pierce baby!! Xoxo <3

    Posted 8.6.14 Reply
  4. Abbee wrote:

    This made me tear up! So sad but you’ve created such a big, wonderful family!!! You have such a great perspective on being pregnant and it makes me stop and think how grateful/blessed I am to also be carrying a child. 🙂

    Posted 8.7.14 Reply
  5. Alison wrote:

    Oh how moving on is sad sometimes! I read this article and thought of you.
    http://sarahbessey.com/learning-live-ache/
    For me it is really hard to know if I am done or if “the ache” means I’m not done. It’s super confusing, because it seems like I will have “the ache” either way.
    So fun to see your big, happy family. I know you’re enjoying all of the moments! Babies and kids are amazing. We are blessed. 🙂

    Posted 2.27.15 Reply
    • jaymepierce wrote:

      oh my goodness love! Thank you so much for thinking of me. The “ache” is so real ugh! I think it’s hard to know when you’re done. There are so many factors that go into. I would love to have 10 kids haha, but realistically it wouldn’t make sense for us. I know I couldn’t provide the attention for 10 and financially it wouldn’t be best for us. I think you’ll know with time if you are done or not. For now you can just try and fill that ache with all your littles hugs and kisses : )

      Posted 3.12.15 Reply

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